Monday, August 24, 2009

Attraction -- Watch your step... First one is a Doosey

Daily Inspirational Quotes

"Watch your manner of speech if you wish to develop a peaceful state of mind. Start each day by affirming peaceful, contented and happy attitudes and your days will tend to be pleasant and successful."
--Norman Vincent Peale


Yesterday, I did as promised. I put on a happy face for my daughter at the field hockey game and was a semi-success. Today, however, is round 2, the field hockey tourney. This time, it's much longer -- a three way -- and not the good kind (oops sorry, just kidding, my bad).

I'm feeling a little frisky this morning.

Maybe it's because I saw a glimpse of my former self yesterday, the good social butterfly self. Mingling was my forte when I was boozin' it. And luckily, it's one of the qualities that has remained in sobriety.

Maybe I'm feeling this way because I felt something stir inside me at the game -- a feeling that has been dead for quite some time.
My confession? I felt an attraction for a man -- a man that I will call G.

SCENE: Sunday, at my daughter's field hockey game -- I'm standing at the Team Merchandise table, embarrassed for leaving my wallet and checkbook home. The unfriendly woman behind the table has a very heavy accent -- maybe Lithuanian. When asked the price of the tee-shirts, it sounds like she said $50.

How much are the tee-shirts? (said to me with my back turned)
Susan: I think $15. (I turn around)
Wow, he looks like a cross between McSteamy on Grey's Anatomy and Anderson Cooper... And Bonus -- no wedding ring.
Fifteen sounds better than fifty. (he smiles)
Say something clever, Sue... say something clever.
Are you nuts? I look like a stand in for Orville the pig from Green Acres.

Susan giggles then shuffles away.

Susan: Yeah, fifteen sounds much better.


As a woman who used to overlap boyfriends and engagements, it's inconceivable that I haven't been in the company of the opposite sex for the high end of triple digits. Feeling unattractive, the last thing I want to be is touched.
Another confession? Even when I had 5% body fat, I used to insist on making love in darkness equivalent to a solar eclipse.

When G spoke to me, something erupted inside, like a dormant volcano disturbed from its slumber. And I realized, yet another tragic aspect of enabling my disease -- the absence of romantic love .

Okay, enough of this Harlequin talk.

Today, I started my day with a thimble full of hope rather than a pocket full of sour grapes. The sun is shining -- it's still a beautiful day.


For my Readers: Thank you ALL for your wonderful comments and encouragement. You fuel my desire to complete my project.

How did you start off your day?


Trée said...

With coffee. Lots of coffee. Then, after reading your post, I went in search of thimbles. :-)

Lou said...

You have me laughing this morning;)

At today's tourney wear that t-shirt that says "single" on the front, and "I make a mean pie crust" on the back.

Tall Kay said...

Funny how a handsome man can make us lose weight in a matter of seconds! Hope he's there again today! Have fun.

Mom of Opiate Addict said...

Yes, I agree with Kay, hope he is there again today, knock his socks off! Enjoy;)

clean and crazy said...

you know this made me think of the first time i saw wes. and our first kiss, it still makes me tingle inside... thanks for that as for me i started my day out with some fresh pancakes and then a workout at the gym!! now i am catching up on some much needed commenting i missed my bloggers.

LarryG said...

Peace, it's not a destination anymore, it's the starting point! :)

Gin said...

Hope your social butterfly comes out when you see him again. If he looks even a little bit like you described I would melt!

Dr.John said...

Good hunting.

Anonymous said...

You did awesome!!! Hope you get to see G again. I just love the honest and touching way you write.

Diana said...

Just go ahead and fantasize. It's about the only thing left that they can't tax the shit out off! Hope nobodies paying attention!
Love Di

robert said...

Started the day being called by my two year old son, after me sleeping for about four hours.
Was so glad to hear him and spend two hours at the playground with him.

stephanie (bad mom) said...

I can't publicly say how I started my day but you can be assured it was definitely affirming peaceful, contented & happy attitudes :D

I am so excited for your eruption of joy at the sight/sound of G! So you're replaying that scene [with improved wit ;)] every morning now?

Busy Bee Suz said...

All I can say is you are awesome. you made me made me think.( really, not such a fan of the thinking part! :))
There is nothing like having a crush on someone to lighten up your spirits.
I started my day with waking up kids, having my coffee and being thankful for the here and now. ;)
take care, suz

Linda said...

You have brought a smile to my face! You have a great sense of humor. I can so relate.

Have a blessed day!

Syd said...

I think that the loss of romance because of alcoholism is something that I didn't think was possible to recover. Yet, I now see that it is possible. Good luck with opening up new possibilities in your life. One never knows what's going to happen on any given day. Life is good.