"Every man's memory is his private literature."
-- Aldous Huxley
My memory is the key to my recovery. Spirituality is about "seeing" --seeing my life as it is, rather than how I imagined or hoped it would be. My pain belongs in my life because it is mine! Alcohol always works; but does it work for me or against me? My remembering helps me answer that question today and hopefully tomorrow.
Today's Prayer: Thank You, God, for allowing my yesterdays to forge my tomorrows.
***Memory, Magic or Destiny?***
Ingrid Bergman once said, "Happiness is good health and a bad memory." Well, for me, only half of this is true.
I realize that I have to remember the mistakes in my past.
I have to remember that woman that nearly ruined her daughter's communion party. She drank all the carafes of wine leftover on the tables then in front of her relatives, gave her fiance a lap dance using his tie as bondage.
That woman driver on the Taconic, the one who allegedly was driving under the influence. The one who drove the wrong way and killed all of those people -- all of those children. Dear God, I have to remember that woman could have been me.
I have to remember, because if I don't, I am likely to repeat those mistakes over and over again.
Unfortunately, as an addict, I tend to chew on a piece of meat until all the flavor is gone. It's important to remember the past -- learn from the past, but not dwell on the past or act like a victim.
Because when you dwell, it'll feel like you're in... Hello please operator, give me number nine...
"Touch the fire -- I get burned. Touch the fire -- I get burned. Aha, touch the fire -- I get burned!"
Do you have any memories you shouldn't forget? And did Criss Angel guess your card in the video?